It’s so easy to cut a person off with no explanation. I expect people to not give up on me but I’ve basically given up on all types of relationships. When things get a little hard I no longer bother. I just cut people off and never speak to them ever again. Lol I’m such a shit person for that.
You’re toxic.
You’re like these cigarettes that I shouldn’t be smoking. You’re the poison in over drinking. You’re stubborn and stuck in your own world. You’re the type of person to hurt people and decide that you didn’t.
You never look at the big picture. You don’t understand different perspectives. You’re emotionally messy. You have no filter, you say what you want whenever you want, without thinking that there will be consequences. You don’t understand the meaning of friendship. You treat everyone around you like shit. And when you’re called out on it, you get mad.
You’re manipulating, rude, selfish and a hypocrite.
You have no one. No one that care because everyone has given up on you. No one has asked where you’ve been. No one even knew you were gone to begin with. You had nothing. So I gave you all of me.
I hate you. You hurt me consistently. Maybe you’re using me because I’m the only one that cares if you’re dead or alive. If there was one slice of bread left in this world I would give it to you.
You opened up to me once. I saw the other side of you. A kind side. A hurt side. Maybe that’s why I’m doing this. Because I know deep down you’re not a monster. Because I know what it feels like to be in your position. Maybe I’m doing this because I don’t want you to feel the way I did. To have no one. To have nothing.
When you’re nice, you have a weird way of showing it. But I can’t call it out because you’ll deny it.
Why do I do it. Why do you do it?
I already know how this ends. Once you have what you need you’ll flee. I’m okay with that. I just want you to be better even if it means you have to break me as a person. Once more won’t do any harm to me. I’ve been there too many times.
But why do you do it? Why do you consistently hurt me? Why do you bring me down? Is it to swoop to your level? So you hurt less as long as someone else is hurting too? Why do I think I can fix people all the time? To change them for the better? Why do I have so much hope when I’ve repeatedly failed at this same situation? People can’t be fixed unless they want to on their own.
When will I learn?
